I felt like letting go, giving up, and just moving on.

Since we began this process over a year ago there has been one scripture that has been our guiding light.  God has used it to reaffirm so many situations and circumstances.  It has brought comfort, healing, and hope.  There have been so many times where I feel like letting go, giving up, and just moving on.

Update on the Chick fil A Fundraiser!

I have been wanting to share with y'all how the Chick fil A Adoption fundraiser turned out.  We have been crazy busy since last week, but I am glad to finally have a moment to update you.  To say the least it was a GIANT success!!!  It went above and beyond any expectations I could have ever imagined.

The next BIG thing!

We are so excited for our next fundraiser!  We have been anxiously preparing for it for the last couple weeks.  This is one that has been in the back of my mind since January.  I have prayed consistently about it for months.  When it first came to mind I was a little nervous about it.  I was not sure where to start or how to put it together.  I kept praying about it to be sure it was definitely something we should tackle.  I kept coming back with a resounding, "YES"!  Doors opened and plans were made.  So here we are faithfully standing and waiting to see how God will show up with this one!

Why haven't I been trusted with a child?

I did not think Mother's Day would have much of an effect on me.  I expected to do as we always do.  We spend time with our families and friends and celebrate moms!  It's always been a wonderful time.  I have adoption friends and friends who struggle with infertility.  I had heard them say Mother's Day is a hard day and were not looking forward to it for certain reasons.  They said it hurts.  They said they feel lonely and sad.  I understood for them, but not me...  I was certain I would be fine.

I had been asking myself in the days leading up to Sunday if Mother's Day would hurt this year.  Would I be sad?  Would it be anything but normal?  Would not being a mom hurt even more on Sunday?  I kept coming up with no.  You don't let stuff like that get to you.  It's not about you.  You will be fine.  Mother's Day is for moms.  You aren't a mom.  It's not even about you.  Just focus on the things you need to get done for others.  I was settled with that answer.  I was good with it.  I had no issue with Mother's Day.  I was good to go.  Until Mother's Day eve....

"So you think you will be a mother this Mother's Day?" he asked

Ahhhh Mother's Day.  Mother's Day is coming.  Did you know it's just 4 days away?  A day to celebrate mama's everywhere.  This year is a little different for me.

I was walking along minding my own business and wham out of nowhere like a heavy brick being dropped on my little baby toe someone asks me, "Sooooo you think you will be a mother this year for Mother's Day?"

Is it all worth it?

This past week has been a busy one.  Our seven month mark came and went.  Some days I have to remind myself where we are in this whole process.  Time seems to be flying. I keep us incredibly busy. I have told y'all before I am a type A personality.  I grab life.  I am a go-getter.  I am a doer.  Sitting back and waiting for something to happen just isn't in my psyche.

They say opposites attract.  My poor husband.  He just makes me laugh.  He told me this past weekend he knew I always had 10 balls in the air juggling when he married me, but he said he never knew it would get to be this much.  Every day lately it seems I have a new project for us.  We are both excited and thrilled to see all God is laying out before us, but I think he is just flat worn OUT.

We have been working on our T-shirt fundraising project for a couple weeks now.  My husband is the technical designer.  He is great with graphics design!  I have told him more than once I married him for his skills!  Of course I am kidding, but we do make a great team.  I can tell him what I am thinking, show him a couple pictures and he can whip a design for me in no time on the computer.

Seven months. My knees are raw today.

Today marks SEVEN months on the adoption active list!  That is 212 days!  It has been an awesome road so far.  We have discovered things about ourselves we never would have without this journey.  I have been able to do things I never dreamed possible before.  Our marriage, love for each other, and love for our God are stronger because of it.  We are thanking God for the hard road.  It will make the reward that much sweeter!

Some days are harder than others.  May I be so bold as to ask you to pray for us? Adoption is not easy.  It plays with your heart.  There is a lot of work that goes into it financially, emotionally, and spiritually.  Friends, if you would please remember our family and especially our birthmother in your prayers we would greatly appreciate it.  Please pray specifically for our birthmother's comfort and safety as well as for peace for us and for our financial resources to be ready when the time comes.   

God will reveal our child when His timing is perfect.  Until then we will continue to walk our adoption journey in His good and perfect will for our lives.  Your prayers support and sustain us.  My knees are raw today.  Thank you for your love and encouragement!  Thank you for joining us in growing our family.